Im a nut for Christmas music and the whole holiday season and spirit. [more inside]
This song is a very hard song to discribe. Seeing that we dont really know each other I feel I can blurt out the real meaning here of this song in this forum so to speak. Its very personal song. My daughter got her self pregnant and she wasnt ready. I pleaded please have the baby we can work through this it will be ok. I thought she was going to be with me in this and my wishes. We were on good terms and our relationship was that of divorse myself in Mi and her in Tx even though I was in her life I wasnt there as much as I should have been. Anyway we talked of this and then for some reason she cut me out. I called and I called and I called my X wife, she was on the was to Dallas with no phone to get a abortion. I had no way to stop her. This was my first grandchild being ripped out of my life. It happened I cant change that. That nite I sat down in a chair and spit out these words. Its all I have let to remind me that my grand child was. They killed a part of me that day. Im in more contact and still love my daughter very very much. We all make mistakes and bad choices. Anyway I wrote this song about you where ever you may be. Maybe sitting on my lap right now and I dont even know it. My daughter has not heard this.