Tired Of Winning

Another track from my first solo album. Like a great many of these lyrics, it began as a joke, albeit a sardonic one. President Trump had done something else horrifying and I said, out loud to mrs. eustacescrubb, "he was right. I AM tired of winning!"

I was also, at the time, frustrated with the way liberal/lefty types seem to think that having an idea or believing the right things would be enough to save our democracy from itself, as if merely winning an argument on Twitter could protect us from the predators of capitalism.
Also, I had written a slow of slow, Eno-esque songs and I wanted to right something fast with a buzzy analog synth saw. Also, I was having a lot fun with fast arpeggios and Logic's EVOC vocoder.

lyrics:

Tired Of Winning

the heart is not a ballot box
overdosed on network truths

storm clouds loom overhead
we were born to these dark times

I'm just so tired of winning

one terrible sound drowns out all others
speaking in a voice of rust

I’m so clever with my smartphone
all empires become dust

you know the president's insane
always says the craziest things

pardon while I take this call
I belong to my machines

I'm just so tired of winning

the angel spoke just one syllable
thermonuclear gust

I’m so pathetic with my laptop
whose data does in trust?

I'm just so tired of winning

• play
• pause
• min volume
• max volume

posted by eustacescrubb (2 comments total)

This is thematically, musically perfect. Like a Suicide song mixed with heavy cyberpunk, both older dark versions of the future that now feel very perfectly made for our actual present.

I usually have trouble with stuff that’s this anti-melodic, but I was surprised to see that what felt like a 2 minute song is 5. Your drone doesn’t drone on (like a Suicide song) The drums and voice explore the space and bring out everything there. This is awesome.
posted by es_de_bah at 10:43 PM on January 14, 2018 [1 favorite]

Wow, thanks!
posted by eustacescrubb at 4:34 PM on January 16, 2018